sigh.. lonely and lost me...

sigh... so sianz.. now alone at home... dunno wat to do... parents are like 'go swimming now. if not no going church,school,ballet and piano.' Den im like 'wat!!!! u think swimming,pianoand studying so easy meh... so easy den u go la... bloody hell...' so irritating lor... i was actually looking forward to got to church... when they say cannot go... i feel so free when i go to church lor... sigh... so sianz... den they say haf to work for food and lodging... and they say tat i dont belong to the home... and tat i can leave... I am now feeling so....... i dunno la.... all i noe is tat i am back to tat old feeliing of dying.... but i dunno wanna leave all my frens...... hey all brothers and sisters-in-christ.... please help and pray for me... Thank you guys a million times!!!! =D